Order Only: Private Message to Draco
May. 21st, 2015 09:26 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
alt_hermioneWhere are you? I mean, are you in the castle or out?
(I know I don't need to use the Order lock anymore only--well, I just don't feel like not using it.)
Are you here? Are you--can you take a tea break, or something?
(I know I don't need to use the Order lock anymore only--well, I just don't feel like not using it.)
Are you here? Are you--can you take a tea break, or something?
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Date: 2015-05-21 02:32 pm (UTC)Anyway, course I can take a break. Where are you?
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Date: 2015-05-21 02:38 pm (UTC)In my old cubby.
I'm meant to be helping Professor Slughorn but Linus Moon dropped in with something to give him from Sinistra and--
I just suddenly felt like if I'd stayed I probably would have HEXED him. And I don't even know why! It's not like he's ever done anything horrible. He helped find all that information for Harry, and without that--
Well, maybe that's part of it but that's not
I can't breathe
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Date: 2015-05-21 02:44 pm (UTC)It's okay. You might not feel safe here, like you do at home, because you never felt safe here before.
I think that's a completely understandable reaction to have.
Let me dry off and I'll come be with you.
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Date: 2015-05-21 02:52 pm (UTC)It's...people like him, or Macmillan, or Forney. They never even chose what side to be on. We're supposed to just accept them and of course, we have to forgive them and let them be part of this, but no one's even said anything about how they did nothing. And now they're just running round the castle like they've been part of it all along.
And another thing. Did you bother to read what Sinistra said about her family's funerals? Of course you didn't. I didn't either, really, but it made me angry all the same. The fact of it, and the fact that she stayed safe and protected in that bloody TOWER when people she cared about were dying. When Diggory got hit just yards away from her but Sally-Anne and Terry had to come take him to the Hospital Wing. When you and Sev--
What's the bloody good of all that 'training' she supposedly did with Lestrange if she's just going to hide whenever there's danger?
And then telling us how we're supposed to mourn?
I hate her.
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Date: 2015-05-21 03:06 pm (UTC)Too right about Moon and his lady love, or any of the rest of them whose hides we saved. I imagine Mrs Longbottom feels it would be horrifically awkward to bring up allegiances now, or to point out that they'd be buried in the rubble if not for the risks others of us are willing to take.
And I wouldn't go looking for anything admirable in Sinistra other than her ability to bleed her eyes out working on endless calculations. She didn't even want to be in the order until Raz died. I don't care if she wasn't "trustworthy" before then. You think she really would have joined up if her perfect Death Eater husband were still alive? No way.
You should hate her as much as you want, far as I'm concerned.
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Date: 2015-05-21 03:21 pm (UTC)And I suppose I should be grateful to her and Moon and Evie, even, for poring over those calculations. Because if we didn't have them it would probably have been me. Or me and Sirius, or me and Se-
But you're right, they're ciphers.
Is this what it means, to put the world back together the right way? I mean, there've always been people in the Order who didn't get along, I suppose. I ought to be able to work alongside them anyway.
Only.
Has Hydra checked them, do you know? They're not going to change their minds and support the Protectorate again?
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Date: 2015-05-21 03:26 pm (UTC)We do have to manage a way to work alongside people we'd rather have nothing to do with. I mean, he was always able to, somehow. And if he could -
But it doesn't mean having to be cheerful about it, either.
Rachel has kept Hydra busy doing checks on the MLE people she wants to bring in. But one of us could ask Hydra. I think she'd probably understand.