I Solemnly Swear That I Am Up To No Good: Private Message to Hydra and Harry

[alt_hermione]

Hydra?

I was reading in my cubby (but it's difficult because every time anyone walks through the corridor I worry they'll see) and I thought I saw you go by.

Are you all right? Only usually you're revising or off with Justin in the evenings.

I mean, if that was you and not Cressida Bode.

Is.... Is everything okay?

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[alt_hydra]

Yes. Because it wasn't as if I heard it with my ears. It was something else.

I can't be a legilimens, I just can't. I don't know what to do.

[alt_hermione]

But, you are. I mean, if you are, then you just are.

And pretending you're not isn't going to make it go away.

Anyways, we need someone who can really tell us if we're occluding right or not. So why is it such a horrible thing?

[alt_hydra]

You already know two people who can help with occlumency. You said you did.

Have you ever had it done to you? Legilimency? If you had you would never ask me to do it to anyone else.

[alt_hermione]

Well, we do, but at least one isn't a natural legilimens, though.

And yes, the person who's teaching me has used the spell kind, to work on it.

It's frustrating when you find yourself thinking thoughts you don't want them to see but it's not like being Cruciated or anything. It doesn't hurt.

But I can only imagine what it would be like to have someone root through your brain who didn't care what they saw. Or who was looking for something incriminating.

She did, didn't she? Your mother. She helped herself to your private thoughts.

I'm sorry.

[alt_hydra]

But it does hurt. I'd rather be cruciated.

And it was more than just helping herself. She

So I can't. Even if I am one, I won't do it. I just won't. If everyone hates me and wants me to leave the lock that's fine. I'll go. But I won't do it.

[alt_hermione]

Hydra, have you...read anything about Legilimency? Natural legilimency?

No one's going to make you leave the lock, anyway.




What did she do to you?

I'm--I'm sorry, you probably don't want to talk about it.

Would you--would it help to talk to Justin?

[alt_hermione]

Or maybe Madam Pomfrey?

[alt_hydra]

I'd rather not talk about it, if you please.

With anyone.

He thinks I'm strong, you know.

I'd rather not that he find out about all those ugly things.

Not because I think it will change the way he feels, but - I'd rather not trouble anyone.

[alt_hermione]

You sound like he did that time he almost died.

But I guess I understand not wanting to talk about it. I really do.