I Solemnly Swear That I Am Up to No Good - I'm all right

[alt_hermione]

But, you know, sometimes you see things that you can't ever unsee, and you have to make very hard decisions, and I don't know if I made the right one, and I wish

Well there was this other muggle-born who I've been helping, I mean he is awfully stupid, not more than usual but he just is like a cow, he does anything they tell him to. He was at Buckingham and he's not much older than us, I mean maybe he is but he's very small. He's almost like Dennis only not so active, he just is like a zombie, but he was in the servant area with me, and then the bomb went off, and he fell on top of me.

I don't know whether he meant to or not, because he's like a zombie, like I said, and now that I think about it he probably didn't, he probably would rather I was on top of him.

But he was on top and he got hurt very badly, and I just had my arm broken, and then I could have gotten away, but they couldn't do anything, and he was dying, and I told him I wouldn't go anywhere, and I said I was going to stay right there, and he couldn't talk, and then this low little man from Buckingham who's a wizard and who's in charge of the Muggleborns, I think he's a half-blood and I think he likes that he's on top of someone at least, but he came over and he just killed him and said it was like putting a dog down.

And then he took me back to Harry and it was too late for me to escape, I mean I know some other people did, but I couldn't, I had lost my chance.

So that's what happened and that's why I couldn't say anything.

Comments

[alt_terry]

(I wonder if you and me are ever going to get away. Seems like we keep getting our chances snatched away from us.)

[alt_hermione]

I don't know, I feel as though if I just didn't care about anyone, it would be terribly easy to get away -- even though it probably wouldn't be it feels like that -- but of course I do, and I know you do, and it just isn't possible, I mean, I feel like leaving anybody would be like betraying them and I just can't, at least not like that, like it was yesterday.