Order Only: Private Message to Terry Boot and Harry Marvolo

[alt_hermione]

Terry, I'm so glad you're all right! And I can send this message to you now, and I don't have to worry about anything. It's like a little miracle.

Have you read through the minutes of the meeting? I wanted to say some things about it but I honestly don't know myself. I'd like to add Neville to the Order, and I'd like to add so many other people too, but I'm nervous about it. But Neville's pretty good at Occlumency actually—I mean he's miles better than me or anyone else, he just sort of shuts down like he isn't even there. Like you used to sometimes, only in his head.

I don't know. With the things about Hydra... I've wanted so long to be able to send you messages!! Oh, I don't think I could stand it if they reassigned you to a new person and I couldn't send messages again. It's so hard to keep everything straight, and Fred and George aren't exactly the people I want to talk to always, I mean, I know they've been so nice to you, but—I just don't say things sometimes because I'm afraid I'll say the wrong thing or I'll forget what I'm supposed to be keeping secret from who. But now we can talk!!

And I heard, from Mr Snape, that some people had been talking about sending me to Moddey Dhoo sometime this summer—so maybe I'll even be able to see you again!! Won't that be lovely?? I don't know how they'll manage it but I don't mind not knowing, I can't wait!

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[alt_terry]

Hermione

I think I'm

haven't you

I don't know what

So yeah, private messages. It doesn't feel real. Nothing feels quite real, not yet, even almost a week later.

I wrote my first private message to Fred and George last night. I was hoping, but almost scared to try. I wrote Fred's name, and stopped, and the magic started to fill in his name and...then it just dissolved on the first letter. And I could write in George's. I was so...I had to go outside and walk around a little bit because I just sort of overcome. Oh, I'm sure you know what I mean. You understand.

Fred and George said they'll have their dad look into all the legal stuff. Try to lose my file or something, so no one thinks to assign me a new master. I hope it works.

Now that I'm free, I hate worse than poison that you aren't. Are you bound too, the way I was? Why can't they just hide you at Moddey Dhoo? Or do they need you too much, to spy on things at Buckingham?

I've spent the day rereading the old Order Only stuff that's appeared in my journal now. And there's still so much to read. Some of it makes my head spin! It's like suddenly knowing a whole other part of the story...so much that we didn't see makes so much more sense. Or that I didn't see, I mean. Why, you've been an Order member as long as I've known you, haven't you?

They said that I can start with the classes tomorrow. If I want to. They're really bending over backwards to make it clear to me that I don't have to do anything. I guess since they know how I was treated, they want me to get used to do things because I decide to do them, not because I'm forced to. But I'll probably try it. Having Fred and George here this first week was wonderful, they were such a big help. Especially at night. But they're gone now, and I'll have to get used to doing without them. And I'm used to being busy. I wouldn't feel like myself if I were just idle all the time.

But it means being with the other kids. Dudley's okay. Well, mostly. We're still not used to spending so much time together. But I'm not used to other kids AT ALL. Kids who know how to be kids.

I just don't. Fred and George tried to teach me, especially this past week, but I feel like I stick out like a yellow pixie or something.

I'm going to get back to reading. It's fascinating stuff.

They're really kind people, aren't they? The Order people.

Well, of course they are. You're one of 'em.