Well, you know -- Sirius was supposed to be the one to adopt Harry, if he ever lost his parents. That's what a 'godfather' is for, in theory.
So it's making him think about what was denied him. And what's he's lost. But he doesn't want to rain on anyone's picnic, of course.
Anyway, about Terry. It's only been -- two years? Just over two years? So it's not surprising he's still struggling, and still reaching for things that seem straightforward, trying to fill up that well Carrow dug in his soul.
You didn't know Sirius when he was a teenager. I did. Obviously, the damage done was different. His parents were not as relentlessly sadistic as Carrow, and they did love him as more than an object for torture, but then -- being tormented by people who say they love you does its own sort of damage. At least Terry always knew Carrow was his enemy, whereas Sirius...
You can still see that damage -- well, I can, I guess I'm just assuming you can, too. But a great deal got smoothed over, with time. He's still reckless but he doesn't court death just to test his own worth to the universe, for instance.
And part of that's because of the Potters, who took him in after his own family cast him out. They absolutely treated him as a son, though they never -- well, I don't think it would have occurred to any of them. For them to adopt him, magically and legally, make him Sirius Potter instead of Sirius Black. (Probably just as well -- surely it would've kept him out of 12GP after Walburga died.) Possibly that was part of his reaction, too, thinking about what that would have meant, or not meant.
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So it's making him think about what was denied him. And what's he's lost. But he doesn't want to rain on anyone's picnic, of course.
Anyway, about Terry. It's only been -- two years? Just over two years? So it's not surprising he's still struggling, and still reaching for things that seem straightforward, trying to fill up that well Carrow dug in his soul.
You didn't know Sirius when he was a teenager. I did. Obviously, the damage done was different. His parents were not as relentlessly sadistic as Carrow, and they did love him as more than an object for torture, but then -- being tormented by people who say they love you does its own sort of damage. At least Terry always knew Carrow was his enemy, whereas Sirius...
You can still see that damage -- well, I can, I guess I'm just assuming you can, too. But a great deal got smoothed over, with time. He's still reckless but he doesn't court death just to test his own worth to the universe, for instance.
And part of that's because of the Potters, who took him in after his own family cast him out. They absolutely treated him as a son, though they never -- well, I don't think it would have occurred to any of them. For them to adopt him, magically and legally, make him Sirius Potter instead of Sirius Black. (Probably just as well -- surely it would've kept him out of 12GP after Walburga died.) Possibly that was part of his reaction, too, thinking about what that would have meant, or not meant.