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alt_hermione) wrote2013-10-16 01:13 pm
alt_hermione) wrote2013-10-16 01:13 pm
Order Only: Private Message to Terry
You asked about how I'm doing. Sorry, I was going to reply and then I was working with Harry on his Transfiguration and with Mr Snape on more Potions research and--well, then I thought I'd just write to you fresh.
Anyway, the thing is that Hogwarts has actually been really good. I mean, Umbridge wasn't but she barely paid attention to me. And most days I spend either in the library or working with one of the Professors who's in the Order, or with Mr Snape (who isn't a professor but really should have been, he's ever so good at Potions and Occlumency and Defence and so on), so it's really like I can do whatever I like. I just have to make sure the other students don't notice.
And Mr Snape says I'm well beyond Hogwarts level in most of my subjects, anyway. So I don't even mind if I'm not in lessons with everyone else. It's more like I'm studying independently all the time.
I know I make contributions, like with this potion that Sirius has been working on. Mr Snape's been helping only he and Sirius--well, you know, they don't get on. Sometimes it's as if they're speaking different languages. So I try to translate, I suppose, and explain when Sirius is only joking about something or being sarcastic, or stop them when they start talking about something that happened a long time ago.
And besides that I actually did make a suggestion that made a difference. Mr Snape said so.
I wish they could get along, though. It'd be much easier if they could see that they really aren't all that different. Well. Sirius is much more handsome, of course. And Mr Snape has more book-learning. But Sirius is adventurous and Mr Snape is very brave, and they're both ever so much better than they think they are. But even Mrs Longbottom hasn't been able to get them to like each other so I'm not sure it'll ever happen. But I can keep trying, I suppose.
Buckingham's a slightly different story. Sometimes I pick up interesting information but mostly, there are others now who have better conduits for the Order. Draco and Hydra and Harry. But sometimes people forget I'm there.
I don't know. I suppose I'm not really a fighter. I know what you mean about feeling like you're sitting back while others are taking on the risks. But I think as long as we're all doing what we can do, we're all contributing.
Anyway, the thing is that Hogwarts has actually been really good. I mean, Umbridge wasn't but she barely paid attention to me. And most days I spend either in the library or working with one of the Professors who's in the Order, or with Mr Snape (who isn't a professor but really should have been, he's ever so good at Potions and Occlumency and Defence and so on), so it's really like I can do whatever I like. I just have to make sure the other students don't notice.
And Mr Snape says I'm well beyond Hogwarts level in most of my subjects, anyway. So I don't even mind if I'm not in lessons with everyone else. It's more like I'm studying independently all the time.
I know I make contributions, like with this potion that Sirius has been working on. Mr Snape's been helping only he and Sirius--well, you know, they don't get on. Sometimes it's as if they're speaking different languages. So I try to translate, I suppose, and explain when Sirius is only joking about something or being sarcastic, or stop them when they start talking about something that happened a long time ago.
And besides that I actually did make a suggestion that made a difference. Mr Snape said so.
I wish they could get along, though. It'd be much easier if they could see that they really aren't all that different. Well. Sirius is much more handsome, of course. And Mr Snape has more book-learning. But Sirius is adventurous and Mr Snape is very brave, and they're both ever so much better than they think they are. But even Mrs Longbottom hasn't been able to get them to like each other so I'm not sure it'll ever happen. But I can keep trying, I suppose.
Buckingham's a slightly different story. Sometimes I pick up interesting information but mostly, there are others now who have better conduits for the Order. Draco and Hydra and Harry. But sometimes people forget I'm there.
I don't know. I suppose I'm not really a fighter. I know what you mean about feeling like you're sitting back while others are taking on the risks. But I think as long as we're all doing what we can do, we're all contributing.